BAD DAY FOR A LOSER

Since I had a really bad day yesterday, I am just going to post it here so it won't take a time for to bear with it and just forget it after this. But for my personal intention, I won't even tell who it was.

Okay..

This certain person and I are really close since we were like 8 years old. We play, we argue, we cry, etc.. Same as the other children do. Until now, we treat each other like we were real sisters but yesterday. It was a really tough day for me. The time before we met again, she texted that she needed to borrow something, so I said to meet me near our place. But you know, the thing was that she texted something that really pisses me off! I'm gonna tell the words that made me pissed okay. She said, "Just this once can you help me?". Now, as you can see it's just a favor right? but to me as her friend and like a sister telling me this was like a hell out of it. I mean I really help her a LOT. as in A LOT. then she's telling me that? JUST THIS ONCE!! Everytime, she will borrow something I was there to help her. The only time that I wasn't there was that the one before this incident because I really don't have anything to do to help her but then this time I have so yeah I help her. So when we met, we were not that talking. I was all silent. First of all I was really pissed. Secondly, I was sick. Thirdly, it was my prelim week so what can I do I was in stress. Now, I told her why did she texted me like that, then she said that it wasn't for me that it was, "WRONG SEND". Well, actually I didn't believe it but what can I do? So I just fell silent again in a moment and when she aboutto sit I said that I have to go and I was in a hurry. *Oh by the, the thing that she needed at that time, I just gave it to her before she was about to sit.

Now then, she said okay and headed me to terminal. We bid goodbyes with each other. She said thanksa and sorry at that time but I didn't want it. *So stubborn of me,right? Okay, I was at school when she texted me that, "Hey, thank you and sorry about the thing that I texted you".. okay, that?! It means it was really meant for me. I mean the text that I was saying. Then, continuation of the text, "I think that you change a lot since we met. Maybe because it was again the first time that we met after these past few weeks. But then again, I hope you be careful of yourself and don't worry I won't ever bother you again. Thanks" That's the thing she said to me. As if, I'm not the one that helped her all along. As if, I did a really bad thing. So I decided to call her. The time when I was calling her, I was high-pitched teling her all I wanted to say. All the hurt that I felt about her text and then I hunged up.

After a few minutes, she texted me again, "I am not harassing you, I'm just telling what I think. Don't worry I won't ever do that aggain and won't ever bother you!" aigoo~ The nerve! it was really getting into my nerves!

Now, you tell why do I have to be pissed? Am I the only one who thinks that I deserved an apology or it's just my feeling because I was in so much pain and stress? I really don't know what to do. But one thing is for sure I really hate the way she told me that! I hope that she just told me in front of me not just in text because I won't even know what she really feels until that time. And I was really angry at her and until now, I don't care. I don't want to talk to her. I hope you understand. I am really happy that I can use this to let my feelings fade away.

I hope this time, the guilt and the anger that I felt right will really do fade. I am also happy because this is the only thing who can listen to my feelings. So yeah, thanks for listening and GOD BLESS! :)